MUSINGS.

Good afternoon blog world.

I am extremely tired. [shouldn't have stayed up till 4 in the morning should we]
I am wearing a TX Roadhouse Shirt.
I am also wearing gray sweatpants. [which clashes with my BLACK shirt]
I am really anxious and worried, therefore i have bitten off all of my fingernails. [this is disguisting. saliva-y fingers + you don't know what is under those]
I am drinking watered down Dr. Pepper (dublin style)
My purple and white polka dotted tarleton mug is currently near my left hand.
I attended the Rangers game last night. WOO.
I slept in a drug hotel.
It smells like vienna sausages in this room. [it actually smells like microwaved vienna sausages... even worse.]

I have no awesome thoughts, no thought provoking thoughts... just this...

IT IS TIME TO START LIVING> STOP THE BS. srsly. [SRSLY]

good day.

everything in brackets is comments by my sister.

I should probably get on this blogging thing a lot more than I actually do.

Well I'm officially a Tarleton Texan, officially older than my RL, and officially a public school student. Weird.

It has definitely been an experience so far. There is lots of cursing in class, that's been different, although I did have a professor at ACU that cursed a couple times. aaaanyways.

I think this whole transition is very awesome. It is teaching me a lot, and I'm learning (again) how to find myself without defining 'me' by my friendships. That's an oddly put-together sentence now that I look at it, but... moving on!

Football game is tonight, and I have class in half an hour, so I'm going to jet! But i'll be sure and update laterrrr.

=)

jumping off...

I love the rush of knowing that everything is about to change. Standing on the brink of the unknown... not knowing what to expect. And it won't be very long until I will be on another brink, God willing, after I finish school.

I'm just a jumble of emotions and feelings. It's almost like going to college for the first time, all over again. I'm leaving all that I currently know, my friends who became family, familiar surroundings, coworkers, etc. My high school friends have mostly faded into the past, but I gained a new circle of friends, who I am up and leaving to move to somewhere that has no one I know (save for my brother and sister).

I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm a teeny bit scared. I'm sad. I'm happy.

And I get a second chance. A fresh start. Something I have been waiting for and hoping for, and praying for, but the fearful human in me wants to just take 2 steps back and weigh all my options once more, and think everything through... but another part of me wants to just throw caution to the wind and jump into this situation feet first with reckless abandon.

We'll see how it goes....